It's been awhile. Somehow, I lost motivation for everything, including writing. Feeling is a quite luxury thing to take notice of, because it always naturally passed by each day.
Sometimes, when I wanted to find myself of 2-3 years ago, I listened the songs I've listened back then. After all, no matter how much time has passed, I still like what I've liked back then. They always bring back memories and feelings, which is what I am so desperately in need of every now and then.
I prefer living for the present, but every so often, I want to run away from it.
Sometimes, when sadness came to visit me at night, I was overwhelmed with how much I loved that moment. Even now, when I have that person, my heart felt warm, but it also felt cold at times like this.