Diary Online For Everyone

[silver]

You didn't ask me why
I never would have known
Oblivion is falling down


And I do
Reside in your light
Put out the fire with me and find


Yeah.. you'll lose
the side of your circles

That's what I'll do
if we say goodbye..

[Giấc Mơ Xinh]

Oh, so tired, so bored. I hate all. Why?
I want it but i can't, oh yes, maybe i am afraid of you. Why? I can do it better because of u

[silver]

stupid LS teacher


of course knowledge is power, how in your right mind could you question the reliability of the statement??

what do people obtain knowledge for?? to be acknowledged, to be admired, to be respected

to freaking rule!!!


yes what else do the chinese people send human to space for?? to discover!!! whoever make ground-shaking discoveries are bound to have power and control over a few certain aspects, not economical alone..

its just a way to prove themselves..


why do they need to prove themselves??

to show that they're capable of ruling..

that's a key access to gain global acceptance on their strength and ability..

and if they're strong, they're willing to CONTROL oneday


as long as you acquire an accountable amount of knowledge, you are already half way through taking on life's ultimate achievement..



then is it wrong to say knowledge is power??


maybe it's time for you to stop doubting, stop being keen and skeptical on everything.. the world is NOT black and white, it's gray..


so listen!!

and accept it!!



and please stop trying to define one's vitality in life..

it varies in accordance with one's preference


like how i hate you the same way you think passion is meaningless..



you're a mess.. a big one!!!

[planetarium]

It's supposed to be a secret.
It's supposed to be a secret.
It's supposed to be a secret.

I can't lie to myself anymore.
I can't go on anymore.
Can't pretend nothing happened.
I need to back away.
I need an escape.
Before I cross the line.

Morning, cranky,
Afternoon, in tears,
What's in store for evening?

I don't want to read them anymore.
I don't want to feel like this.
I'm not supposed to have this feeling.
Maybe I should stop thinking that I'm the center of the universe.

Run, run, run
As far as I can
Even though it will finally catch up to me.

Time elapses.
Everything turns into nothing.
Definiteness reaches the point of infinity.
Will it be possible to have control over memory?

[silver]

My Little Teddy Bear.

I thought I saw my teddy bear
softly appear, out of nowhere
wish I could've done more than just stare
into the deafening silence,

here & there..



It's a secret I'd never share
a moment so rare

kissing the teddy bear..

.
.
.

If you let me love you
I'd given my heart
to warm yours with so much care..

therefore, stay with me
my little teddy bear.

[planetarium]

Hella....

Talking about being spun around...

I feel like I'm an Earth revolving around my Sun.

Or an all too willing slave for my demanding lord.

What the heck...

--

Reminds me of my childhood, in bits and pieces..

My favorite toys used to be dolls and dominoes and marbles and kaleidoscopes and hourglasses, not teddy bears.

Dolls were for stripping off and wrapping "khăn quàng đỏ" around and making some heck-that-is-so-weird fashion shows, or simply for breaking off legs and arms, just to know how to put them back together again.

My little sis obviously rolled her eyes in disbelief.


Dominoes are for building castles, when lego bricks were still out of reach. Be it a domino effect, all would be gone with the wind. And I found joy in destroying something that I built up myself, just to rebuild it again.

Life is always a circle..


Marbles were things that I took from my elementary classmate, who was all so willing. I loved looking at those sparkling little round things for minutes, putting them in a pretty box and shook it to hear the sounds.

Eventually, they were lost, one by one...


Kaleidoscopes changed my way to view things in front of my eyes. I blinded myself in all those pretty, constantly changing illusions. Patterns that looked like the paths sprinkled with dust of the stars and the moon and filled with drops of sunlight.

One day I dropped it, and the glass shattered into pieces...

And I realize that sparkling things do not last for eternity..


Hourglasses were for keeping time. Shake it, turn it upside down and look as the golden sand slowly fell down. I thought I could grasp time within my fingers, but for some reasons, one of which is my carelessness, it was also lost.

So time doesn't stay for long either...


I had a pool filled with fish and a rod to fish them. But I failed most of the times because of my horrible hand-eye coordination, and so it was put away, on the top shelf of a wardrobe. In my fourth grade, with just a slight push of my older sis, the accidence occurred. The wardrobe fell down on the floor, and its glass broke. The fates of the toys I had stored in there remained unknown to me until now.


Why not teddy bears?

My little sis had a collection of keroppi, which were teddy frogs. And it was horrible seeing their big and too-bright eyes in the middle of the night, after I had just woken up by a nightmare, and next to my bed was a mirror filled with undefined and shady shadows, while on the opposite was a huge picture of a girl, made from 500 puzzle pieces assembled.

They were completely exhausting nights, and to me they were replays of some horror movies, since I had a habit of seeing delusions even in daylight...

--

Well... just a reminiscence of a boring childhood. Don't know if this could brighten of "somebody"'s day...

By the way... F2's main character... isn't it too obvious as to who gave me the inspiration? I thought my dear Lord would know at once, yet... ah, another oblivious moment...

[silver]

reminiscence

It's a noun with depth and texture..

has always stirred up emotions in your almighty Sun..


I pray you don't grow up so fast.


toys shouldn't grow up, they forever remain in the oblivion of youth, waiting for time to draw the curtain..
and sometimes people forget to peer..


i'm losing pieces and bits of my childhood..


a reminder could bring about the pain so fierce, its choking up the air..



for my teddy bear.





how very uncreative of you -_______________-"

[planetarium]

Lie to me once, lie to me forever...

My trust is shattered at your feet,

And heaven is crashing down.

When my world is being divided

Into darkness and light,

Fleetingly memories fall down like cherry blossoms,

And there you are, standing still at the border line.

The sign in front points out directions:

Come to the light, be true to me always;

Return to darkness, blinding me with mendacity.

Shaking your head, you say you can't choose;

Thus I let go, with each step moving forward...

Yet every time I look back, I see you there,

Still standing.

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Just a spur of the moment