life like a runway

[lovely9003]

"No matter how far we travel, the start of life
Is a lonely baby who cried out to live and be loved
Our reason to continue leaving here for somewhere else
Is because it is needed in order to see that there is no answer anywhere other then in the heart"

1st theme for diary ... but i ll focus mostly about life ... photography and fashion of course .. main things in my life ..

things been pretty slow lately ... spend most of my time watching bleach .. i finally catch up with the eps .. next week ll be super busy with school ... phewww .. kinda excited and ehh .. i mean i miss the feeling of going to school and all but what with the hw and tests ... it turn me down alot .. -__- .. hopefully college is better than high school .. less drama and more fun ..

shopping has been slow down too ... the weather was too cold for me to visit the mall .. .. im starting to miss that tingling feeling that i always have when i get a new dress or a new pair of shoes .. sigh .. even though the vietnamese new yr is here .. but it feel just like every normal day .. nothing special .. not like the feeling he has right now ... I wish i could feel the same way ..

http://www.fileden.com/files/2008/7/4/1989004/Turn%20me%20up%20-%20Frankie%20%28Phuongtroi.com%29.mp3

let start this diary fresh some upbeat song

Turn up the volume ... turn me up


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[lovely9003]

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"My tired legs collapse, I lie down and repeat my shallow sleep
I see that same profile over and over, I hear those same words over and over?
“Is it just me who thinks life is just sad?”


still sick and currently into the blue ... my whole body is aching .. it's at its limit .. I cant help but let it sink into this state ... Im feeling useless ..

sign on my yahoo and his msgs pop rite on my face ... normally i would smile but this time I didn't .. I feel a bit heavy .. I want to be by myself so I send back some msgs to him .. dont wait up for me .. is it me or did he do something wrong ... no no .. i shouldn't blamed him for anything .. he been such a good husband lately .. even though he stay so far ... he still calls and chat with me everyday .. he never forget about me for just a second ...maybe it just me .. i just need some quite time to think .. to relax .. I don't want to burden him more ..

it already Wednesday ... 5 more days ..

I spend my day in silent ..

Last night , I started to talk to one of my old friend .. he seem fine and nice .. he said he might visit me ... I know bunnie boo wont like it but I ll do what I like ..

my cuzin n i were baking the other days ... i finally uploaded some pics

http://i46.photobucket.com/albums/f150/lovely9003/l_5361353ffffc4ca7b76eb2138b2c8449.jpg
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http://www.fileden.com/files/2008/7/4/1989004/06%20You.wma

Every love song .. every bright smile .. reminds me of you
Everywhere I go .. every blue sky .. reminds me of you

Babe I miss you

[lovely9003]

Haters everywhere .. people r ugly..

what is this... jealousy perhaps when u see a person has bigger boobs than u.. prettier eyes than you.. skinnier than u... -__-...

Go Fuk urself please if u have nothing to do... and keep ur comments to urself biatchhhh..

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3 more days.. gosh.. i still misssing 3 books.. one of them cost me almost 200 bucks .. damn .. now i hate college .. books are heavier and way more expensive ..

got a call from him .. i feel better when i hear his voice .. i know his love is there for me even though he doesnt live near me ... He all worry .. ask me a bunch of question .. yes .. he care for me so much .. even more than my parent ... but i still question his love and make him sad sometimes .. im such a meanie .. i gotta treat him better ... gotta love my bunnie boo more ...

im a greedy person .. i dunno why my satisfaction is way too high .. i make my bunnie boo suffer .. even though he perfect the way he is .. sweet and caring .. I wish i can think like him.. i ll feel at ease more.. sigh ... he put me on top of his world .. never compare me to another girl .. always telling me im the best .. who care about the rest .. that him .. but i .. i care about the rest .. cause im curious .. i dont cheat .. but im looking outside sometimes ..

i like challenges ... it keeps everything interesting .. it keeps me going for more .. i always get bored so easily .. sigh .. Patient is not my best friend ..

that song .. it remind me of those nites .. yes .. im craving for your touch... ur kiss .. ur hug .. ur warmth ..the way our body blend as one .. i kno u want it too babe ..

http://www.fileden.com/files/2008/12/22/2233798/Make%20that%20sound%20-%20J.%20Holiday%20%28Phuongtroi.com%29.mp3

When i make that sound...

[lovely9003]

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In this crazy world where life is happening so fast and unexpected ... I just wish for a little corner .. a quite place for you and me to hide from the world .. for us to love ..

We always were like those shoes .. in a pair .. can't be complete without the other.. perhaps this is fate .. i met the right guy and I'm happy..

I remember somewhat about the first time we talk .. I was 14 turning 15 .. You were a year older .. but I was always more mature than you in everything except life ... I live my life in the simple way just get through the days ..I only know about school and book.. unlike you .. you live for the thrills .. the excitement .. I envied you .. then you took me into that world ... you changed my life ..

Now, I still couldn't believe .. It's almost 4 years since that day ... through the good time and the bad time ... every hardship .. every little bump in our ordinary life .. every test that life give to us.. from friend to lover ... lover to fiance .. and then now we are anxiously waiting to become husband and wife ...

Life is so unexpected ..

you are my first and also my last one for me to love ... Thank you for coming into my life .. thank you for completing it in the perfect way .. thank you for everything .. my bunnie boo

[lovely9003]

http://www.forever21.com/images/looks/looks_large/20090113-04.jpg http://www.forever21.com/images/looks/looks_large/20090113-01.jpg

perfect for school.. ^^.. im into simple stuff now.. jean n t-shirt.. im too lazy to dress up

but my addiction is vintage baby..

http://www.lullieclothing.com/PHOTOS/1-03-09/i2.jpg http://www.lullieclothing.com/PHOTOS/1-05-09/b1.jpg
http://www.lullieclothing.com/PHOTOS/1-05-09/m3.jpg http://www.lullieclothing.com/PHOTOS/1-15-09/g3.jpg

:so_funny::so_funny:.. nghèo.. shopping

[lovely9003]

Em vẫn còn đợi. Hình như em đã đợi rất lâu, lâu lâu lắm , lâu đến nỗi em không còn nhớ rõ là đã bao lâu. Có lẽ khi con tim cô đơn chờ đợi nó có chút hao mòn theo từng nhịp đập hấp thụ với những xao trộn của môi sinh. Cho nên em không còn nhớ là đã chờ bao lâu . Có lẽ là tự lúc em chào đời, vào cái thế giới này thì em đã bắt đầu chờ . Trong xao trộn của cuộc sống hàng ngày, có kẻ rượt bắt, có kẻ lẩn tránh, có kẻ nhìn lén, có kẻ dèm pha đôi lời, có kẻ bỏ đi, chỉ có riêng em là kẻ dại khờ tự chọn làm người chờ .

Chờ gì anh nhỉ ?

Chờ anh đó mà !!


Chờ anh “lù đù vát cái lu,” nói yêu em, nói nhớ em, nói là rất thương em. Chờ con người mộc mạc giản dị với một tình yêu không kém phần giản đơn dành riêng cho em, và chỉ cho mỗi em thôi . Chờ một người không có ứoc hẹn trong hiện tại nhưng có lẽ là từ một kiếp nào đó chúng ta đã từng quéo ngón tay út và hứa rằng anh sẽ tìm thấy em. Anh vẫn còn chưa tìm ra em sao ? Đừng dùng ánh mắt đời nhìn em anh nhé, hãy dùng trái tìm để tìm thấy em .

Em vẫn chờ …

by snowflake..

[lovely9003]

One night a guy & a girl were
driving home from the movies.
The boy sensed there was
something wrong because of the painful
silence they shared between them
that night.
The girl then asked the boy to pull over
because she wanted to talk.
She told him that her
feelings had changed & that it was time to move on.
A silent tear slid down his cheek as he
slowly reached into his pocket & passed her a folded note.
At that moment, a drunk driver was speeding down
that very same street.
He swerved
right into the drivers seat, killing the boy.Miraculously, the girl survived.
Remembering the note, she
pulled it out & read it , it said
"Without your love, I would die.

:crying: :crying:

yes yes.. without ur love i would die baby.. :crying:

[lovely9003]

Last day to enjoy myself .. tomorrow .. gotta get back to busy life .. starting shopping for school .. putting stuff together .. sigh

Now , i only have 99 lbs .. crazy indeed ... my stomach been bothering my all nite .. it hurt n growl .. ughhh .. still im not in mood for eating ... mom been yellin me about it .. sigh

i tried to sew my dress .. i want it to be shorter ...it kinda long compare to my body cause it was a size bigger .. the last one n it pretty cheap .. -__- .. is there ani other way to make it shorter and not cutting it .. sigh .. i dont want to mess it up ..

no more anime to watch .. the best one still paradise kiss .. gosh .. the manga sucks .. but the anime .. ooh lala .. it amazing .. it reflecting a lot things in life .. i saw myself in that anime somehow ..still waiting for bleach though .. it still my number unooooooo ..

he not on today .. he seem to have too much fun at the wedding .. i feel sad .. i miss him .. one day im happy to hear his fone call n the next day ..when i dont see him .. it all gloomy n sad .. i wish i can keep him to myself but it a selfish thought .. sighhhhhhh ... we live too far .. we have our own life to live .. we have friends and family to worry and love .. we barely have time for each other .. when i go back to school .. i wont even have time to talk to him at nite .. i wonder how it would feel like .. maybe i ll get used to it .. maybe ..

i love to play scrabble but i suck at it :haha: .. i gotta practice more .. it help my vocabulary alot .. ^^

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no more late nite .. no more free time .. no more all nite fone call .. = school start :crying:

gotta sleep early .. wake up early .. get busy ..

I miss him but mad at him at the same time .. he only kno about having fun ... not caring for me at all .. his msg can tell it all .. it just like he do it to please me .. pfft .. that make me mad even more .. im gonna ignore him for 3 days .. time out .. so he ll learn his lesson .. bad bunnie

I got everything together .. i just dont use backpack .. i hate them .. they look ugly .. with my clothes .. ewwwwwww

nite nite the world

i hope for a better day ... Where sunshine will glow on my steps ^^

[lovely9003]

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I had an extremely bad day :crying:

I couldn't sleep until 5 something in the morning .. and I have to wake up at 8 to get ready for school .. I put the wrong eye-contacts and my eyes were hurt .. sigh .. I didn't get a chance to eat breakfast .. I was so hungry .. Waiting for the bus was boring ..

So I remember the wrong schedule .. today is tuesday but I thought it was monday .. go to all wrong classes :crying: ... so I missed all my classes .. my professor probably gonna think Im such a bad student :crying: .. Cant blame nobody .. my head wasn't clear anyway .. I barely get enough sleep .. hungry .. and irritating ..

I still didn't buy the book yet .. :crying: .. and their are exam and stuff coming ... :crying: .. I hate school already

The solution I order for my contact isnt here too .. wat the FFFF .. i need it .. shipping is so slow .. im gonna complain for sure .. bad seller

I wish he was here .. to comfort me .. to make me laugh ... to make me feel better .. but he doesn't even bother to msg me .. he doesn't care :crying: .. I might as well learn to be by myself since he being like this to me .. It just make me sadder .. sigh

I got myself a ice-cream bar to cool down :crying: ... bad day .. bad day .. please go away :crying:

[lovely9003]

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I think I'm sick...

http://bbs.mling.cn/uploadfile/audio/run.mp3

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

[lovely9003]

I will sleep like I never sleep before ...

I haven't had a good sleep in so long .. I miss the refreshing feeling that we can normally feel after a good sleep .. pheww .. I want that feeling so bad .. It might help my brain a bit ..

I done reading one chapter of the book .. It terribly long and boring .. stupid ending and lot of long words -__- .. one more chapter to go ...

It weekend but it feel so sad ... nothing to do but hw .. it not even sunny to go out .. all gloomy and the sky look like it about to cry .. :crying:

He all busy with his family .. preparing for the viet new year ... I miss him .. I want his time all for myself .. wahhh