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25-11-2008, 11:05 PM
Ông trời thật thích trêu người. Chỉ còn 2 ngày nữa là lễ Thanksgiving rồi, tại sao lại không rộng lượng 1 chút để cho mình có thể ăn 1 cái Thanksgiving vui vẻ nhỉ? Thật khó hiểu!?! Mình chưa bao giờ nghĩ mình sẽ cần đến 2 chữ này, nhưng bây giờ nó là từ duy nhất diễn tả tâm trạng của mình. "BUỒN QUÁ"!!!!
Tâm sự này mình thật sự muốn gởi đến 1 người, hy vọng người đó có thể hiểu đc. Hy vọng rằng ng đó cũng sẽ nhanh chóng move on.
"Nick, I know that neither one of us would like this to happen. But it did anyway. Why is today? Why did I pick today to go to school? I could have come next week. Why did you have to sit right there? Why did you professor has to speak so loud? Why am I so noisy? Why did I turn around? If all the "whys" had never happened, then I would have sat at Coffee Central with my buds instead in my room here, all alone. I wish you knew how am feeling right now. I felt it once and never wanted to feel it again. It feels like I lost something which i know exactly what it is, where to find it but I just can't do it.
It's been 8 months already. Not a very long time, huh? Well, it's long enough for me to move on (not completely, of course) but at least I don't have to cry to sleep every night anymore. I tried my best to forget about our memories and I've been doing a very good job 'till today. At the moment when you looked at me, you brought back everything. I felt like it just happened yesterday. I started walking faster in the hallway, down the stairs. I wanted to run as fast as I could to the car and drive away but I couldn't. Instead of going toward the exit, I turned around and walked to the table that we used to sit. I closed my eyes but it couldn't help.
I know we're over and I have to live with it no matter what. We didn't officially say goodbye. But I guess I have a pretty good idea about it when you stopped calling me nor talked to me in school. I guess if I'd called you back that night, it would have made a very big difference. But I didn't...Sweetie, I was at the crossroad and I had to make a choice. It hurts but i still have to do it. Honestly, it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do. You must be wondering why we have the same Reading class. It's not a coincident or anything. It was me!!! I know we're supposed not to care about each other anymore but I just can't do it. I can stop mysf from talking to you but I can't stop thinking about you. I always wanted to know how you're doing. That's why I take that reading class even tho' I don't have to. During this semester, am sitting next to you and have to pretend that you're not there. You have no idea how hard that is. Why would I do that? Why do I have to torture mysf like that? I don't even know.
Nickie, One more year and you won't have to see me again. I will transfer to Central Campus to attend the Medical Lab program. I 1/2 wanna go and 1/2 don't. You know, every thing of this school reminds me about you...the bookstore, the couch next to the window, the table close to the snack machine, the bench, ect...Every time I walk pass by those places, I couldn't help but thinking about the old times. I miss them so much...But I'm not sad because it was yesterday, I'm happy because it happened...I had feeling for you...it's true...eventho' I never told you...all I want you to know is that I didn't pick up your call not because I don't care anymore. I did that because I couldn't find any way to say goodbye. You could be mad at me forever...I don't blame you...Babe, the feeling that I had for you will always be there no matter what...It's just I have to move on...We just can't be taking the same path anymore...I have my own path now...i believe that you have found yours already...so..be strong...I believe that there's somebody who's better than me...waiting for you..and you'll find her somewhere down the road...good luck...all the best things will come to you..."
Tâm sự này mình thật sự muốn gởi đến 1 người, hy vọng người đó có thể hiểu đc. Hy vọng rằng ng đó cũng sẽ nhanh chóng move on.
"Nick, I know that neither one of us would like this to happen. But it did anyway. Why is today? Why did I pick today to go to school? I could have come next week. Why did you have to sit right there? Why did you professor has to speak so loud? Why am I so noisy? Why did I turn around? If all the "whys" had never happened, then I would have sat at Coffee Central with my buds instead in my room here, all alone. I wish you knew how am feeling right now. I felt it once and never wanted to feel it again. It feels like I lost something which i know exactly what it is, where to find it but I just can't do it.
It's been 8 months already. Not a very long time, huh? Well, it's long enough for me to move on (not completely, of course) but at least I don't have to cry to sleep every night anymore. I tried my best to forget about our memories and I've been doing a very good job 'till today. At the moment when you looked at me, you brought back everything. I felt like it just happened yesterday. I started walking faster in the hallway, down the stairs. I wanted to run as fast as I could to the car and drive away but I couldn't. Instead of going toward the exit, I turned around and walked to the table that we used to sit. I closed my eyes but it couldn't help.
I know we're over and I have to live with it no matter what. We didn't officially say goodbye. But I guess I have a pretty good idea about it when you stopped calling me nor talked to me in school. I guess if I'd called you back that night, it would have made a very big difference. But I didn't...Sweetie, I was at the crossroad and I had to make a choice. It hurts but i still have to do it. Honestly, it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do. You must be wondering why we have the same Reading class. It's not a coincident or anything. It was me!!! I know we're supposed not to care about each other anymore but I just can't do it. I can stop mysf from talking to you but I can't stop thinking about you. I always wanted to know how you're doing. That's why I take that reading class even tho' I don't have to. During this semester, am sitting next to you and have to pretend that you're not there. You have no idea how hard that is. Why would I do that? Why do I have to torture mysf like that? I don't even know.
Nickie, One more year and you won't have to see me again. I will transfer to Central Campus to attend the Medical Lab program. I 1/2 wanna go and 1/2 don't. You know, every thing of this school reminds me about you...the bookstore, the couch next to the window, the table close to the snack machine, the bench, ect...Every time I walk pass by those places, I couldn't help but thinking about the old times. I miss them so much...But I'm not sad because it was yesterday, I'm happy because it happened...I had feeling for you...it's true...eventho' I never told you...all I want you to know is that I didn't pick up your call not because I don't care anymore. I did that because I couldn't find any way to say goodbye. You could be mad at me forever...I don't blame you...Babe, the feeling that I had for you will always be there no matter what...It's just I have to move on...We just can't be taking the same path anymore...I have my own path now...i believe that you have found yours already...so..be strong...I believe that there's somebody who's better than me...waiting for you..and you'll find her somewhere down the road...good luck...all the best things will come to you..."